Alright, this is another method for relaying what I am thinking. I don’t exactly know right now, so I think this will likely be a forum to express some of what I have been feeling recently. Well, we will see how it turns out.
I wonder where Jaime is… I hope that she isn’t getting herself into too much trouble. One can only handle so much. I would like to talk to her when I get back, but I don’t know if I will have the time as it will be somewhat late at that point (as it is already 1:20 in the morning) Okay, so what do I have going on in my head?
This was an absolutely amazing weekend. I don’t think I have spent a better time with closer friends. I was able to see Tommy, Dan, Corey, Jeff, and then Helen. This was amazing. I liked the spontanaety, I liked the atmosphere. I loved the time with Helen, that was the best part by far. There is so much that I would like to have, yet so much that I have jeapordized. I think it was great getting to know Jaime and Reesie, and that they will likely give their blessing to me to be with Helen. I know that I am a good Man to be in a relationship with. I know that I will constantly improve myself, because I am committed to the process of changing lives. I don’t know what it was about my physical actions, why I screwed around, why I couldn’t be stronger.
Perhaps it was because I wasn’t strong enough. If that is the case, why am I not strong enough? What gives?