More thinking, more action, more growth.
I’ve been dealing lately with the fact that I am putting on pounds, and now I’m acting to remove them. I topped 200lbs again, and while for a spell I hovered around 180, it reminds me that my goal is actually 165-175. I don’t know how realistic the low side is, but I do know that I feel better about myself when at those lower poundage.
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I got involved with the weekly sunday webcast and am just now getting back to the journal entry. This evening I got a good full hour in of kate listening. It was nice to be able to listen & relisten while riding around the valley. I rode around 10 miles in the hour that I was out, and not only am I feeling good about myself and making action towards good fitness, but also mentally empowered! Woohoo!
K. Time for bed.
June 4, 2004
Day number two in a row! Neat!
Alright, briefly about the day… Went to work, was distracted a lot by dreamweaver, though that wasn’t entirely bad cause I’m learning about CSS. It has lots of potential, but there’s certainly a learning curve. I talked with Heather (?) for about an hour today. She’s the one with arthritis and a conspiracy theory against computers. That was neat. It was nice to share with her, though I don’t want to give an impression that I’m interested. I would be alright with getting to know her I suppose… She’s set high standards that would be good to learn from. Went to talk with Dr. Shepro today about orthodics. He, of course, is biased about his strategy and it seems that Patrick is naturally biased towards his training. I went ahead and set up time to meet with Patrick which was nice. It was at the end of the day, so that gave a little leeway for asking questions about whatever I could think of. Basically I took away that I don’t really need orthotics, but it is most important to stretch out my calves and quads… I am really tight there (duh.) From there I had ultimate, which naturally was a good time, though I was tiring more easily than I had been expecting. I had a collision with Anna that rolled my ankle slightly and my thumb/wrist pain decided to act up, so I ended up calling it quits a couple points earlier than everyone else. I then walked to Breeze In to return Anger Management. It was a good movie, but not really my style, some of the humor was a bit rough. Not crude, just not really my style. During the walk over there Helen wanted to talk, so we did – the entire hour that I was there! I actually was hoping to get some CommuniKate in, but that didn’t happen.
Right now, it’s 12:18, so I think I’m being consistent with my sleeping patterns I suppose. I have to be at work tomorrow at 7:30 so I’ll be going to bed here shortly.
More thoughts about the relationship thing with Helen… Well, I keep getting the feel that I am going to be breaking up with her, though I don’t really want to run from something that I should be addressing in the course of the relationship – namely the sexual aspect. In talking with Bill & Sharon, it’s pretty obvious that the next step that I need to pursue is what I want to accomplish, and how breaking up (or staying together) might support that direction. Sound advice, but naturally, not the easiest to follow.
Alright, so that’s enough for the moment – I’m headed to bed. G’night.
Just got done fighting with my mom about going to a board plan of Chris’! Apparently I perceived, said, & understood everything wrong so she’s mad, well “upset” that I am forcing her to go. Originally she said that she didn’t want to go because shane would then have to stay home alone which she didn’t like the idea of, but I kept on and suggested that I stay home with Shane while she go alone. Next she argues that I should go just as much as her. That was that. Now she refuses to not go, but going with her attitude would be counter producttive in my opinion. Off of that subject, I’ve been sick for awhile but yesterday I threw up at the Laundry & Shower place before schoo. I went to school anyway, even though I had the option of staying home which I turend down. Today I’m feeling a lot better, but my nose is still stuffy. During project period Eli drove us out to Auke Bay Labs & we got a tour and some advice from Larry Holland, our sci fair proj helper as a direct result from that meeting now we have 50 grams or 500 grams of L-ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C) and the knowledge that using fruits in our expiraments would involve using a 100K & up work of equipment (a bad idea) so he showed us some other options. Also in the past 3 days, I have had 3 people ask for advice on what to do about relationships. The first one was Raliegh Morris & Lisa Mitchell; by today it fell apart. The second was Candice Seils & Nathan Harris. She found out that he might go out with her later on just not right now. The third was between Mara Early & Chester Carson. I’m not sure of the outcome as of yet, but after their talk after lunch he was in a bad mood. As for my relationships, I’m much better at being a friedn. Yesterday I found out what soccer team I’ll be on – an extremely crappy one aside from three other kids including Mike Jackson, Miles something-or-other, Andrew Lawrence and myself. It will be more enjoable to ref at this point. My big project that is due beyond semester isn’t yet done. Other than that, I’m doing fine… Academically that is. —
Well, today was a somewhat decent day. I just finished watching a movie called “Striptease” with Demi Moore, an all-right flick. I didn’t think it appropriate for Shane to watch but mom thought otherwise.
I got my teeth cleaned yesterday & Suzie said if I don’t keep care of my gums, my great set of teeth would fall out; I spent most of my movie watching hours with a rubber pick massaging my gums. They bled, but it feels good now.
Just dawned on me: I need to share w/my new electric razor that I got for Christmas – bye for now!