Due to the depressive-ness of being alone, I plan to list out what I want in a partner.
What I Want in a Partner:
Right now, I plan to look into Crystal Novotney, Olivia Lee, Mara Early?. I know Crystal knows how I feel about her. She is committed to Andy. I think I should move on. Olivia is fun to be around & craves a lot of the things I do:
I admire Crystal because of her looks, moods (happy, sad, confused), almost a blonde approach to life, honesty, pity (she lost virginity before 16), smart (not really academically), quick witted, fun, emotional. I admire Olivia for her intelligence, resposibility, quietness, openness, honesty, and the fact we’re both interested in the same things (see previous). I like Mara for her commitment to what she has her mind set on, her playfullness, honesty, and friendlyness. I’ll try Olivia, see if I can at least get her to go out with me. I’d like to make out with someone to learn what it’s like although breaking maybe more troubles than its worth. Life can be fun, it can also be a pain, it’s up to the liver to determine what the quality of life will be. I think it was last thursday, I talked to crystal – we covered the fact that I love her, the realm of religion, and smaller items which I can’t recall. She invited me to go to church w/her I am kind of kicking myself that I didn’t take her up on her offer it may of provided a door to her life. It definitely would have been cool seeing where she was coming from. Maybe I’ll look into it when I have a g-friend so that I can go to learn instead of going ’cause of love or an attempt to get into her heart. Unfortunately from what I have heard, she is set into her ways. (not something I want) I will work on finding someone that meets the criteria listed earlier in this entry. Recetnly I got into chatting on the internet c-sex can be fun and exciting and chat can be a way to find answers and sometimes give answers. Both of which I’m working on. Got to hit the hay… later — Today we had superbowl XXXI – Green bay packers vs. New England Patriots the score = 21-35 green bay —
Two days ago I was on a chat line and gave ‘cyberhead’ to some girl, now I’m catching hell. Everybody seemed to think that I was so innocent yet they had no idea what I am really like. My ‘chatting’ caught them off guard and surprised them so now they give me a hard time about it. Recently Mara & Chester’s relationship has gone to hell, Mara’s depressed – she loves him deeply and he says to go away & leave him alone. The catch is he still loves her. & is being a real asshole about it. He thinks that it would be better for her if they split up. Both she & I think otherwise. Me, now, am worried about Mara & what will become of her – but no progress is being made towards my ‘love’?, Crystal. Also today I met with Larry & he gave me a run through on my procedure tomorrow. I will try to get together with him right after lunch, then I will do my first set of standards, solutions, and expiraments. Candace is almost taking my advice to stay away from Beamer. I said almost because today he received an email message from her. Over the chat line I met a 24 yr old in South Africa. She has been giving me advice on life in general. She is amazed at the fact that I’ve never made out with anyone. She seems to be a great person. She goes as Venus over chat but told me her email address so that I may question her that way. Unfortunately whenever we talk that she never asks questions unless they clarify more about me, it seems so 1-sided. I sometimes feel uncomfortable about that but I’m glad I found someone that I feel confortable talking to about these subjects —
Wow! I’m amazed that I haven’t wrote in so long. Not too much has happened aside from semester ending. Today we were supposed to meet w/Larry to do our expiriments, but we had the wrong day. After that we went back to phoenix & found nathan Harris (Beamer) and convinced him to take his 2-day old truck out thane. Unfortunately his ford is only 2 wheel drive & Eli got it stuck so they went to get Eli’s boss from the fishery and the boss got his truck & pulled him out we then drove out to AB Labs to meet my mom for a ride home only & was 25 min. Late She had left & was pissed once I got hold of her. She chewed me out & told me to do what I was going to do even though she wouldn’t tell me what she wanted. Aside from that – today was a good day. —
I had to find a ride to and from school today as a result from the tiff yesterday. Today was a decent day anyway. It seems that Raliegh, for the most part is recovering from Lisa and even though both Mara and Chester were depressed this morning, they are back together now. I suppose one of the cooler things this weekend are that I have my first practive. Another cool thing is that although when you add it all up, I have lots. I don’t seem to have much difficult (or much) homework. At this point, I’d like to get into Phoenix Sunday unless my practice tomorrow is at Marie Drake.
Just got done fighting with my mom about going to a board plan of Chris’! Apparently I perceived, said, & understood everything wrong so she’s mad, well “upset” that I am forcing her to go. Originally she said that she didn’t want to go because shane would then have to stay home alone which she didn’t like the idea of, but I kept on and suggested that I stay home with Shane while she go alone. Next she argues that I should go just as much as her. That was that. Now she refuses to not go, but going with her attitude would be counter producttive in my opinion. Off of that subject, I’ve been sick for awhile but yesterday I threw up at the Laundry & Shower place before schoo. I went to school anyway, even though I had the option of staying home which I turend down. Today I’m feeling a lot better, but my nose is still stuffy. During project period Eli drove us out to Auke Bay Labs & we got a tour and some advice from Larry Holland, our sci fair proj helper as a direct result from that meeting now we have 50 grams or 500 grams of L-ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C) and the knowledge that using fruits in our expiraments would involve using a 100K & up work of equipment (a bad idea) so he showed us some other options. Also in the past 3 days, I have had 3 people ask for advice on what to do about relationships. The first one was Raliegh Morris & Lisa Mitchell; by today it fell apart. The second was Candice Seils & Nathan Harris. She found out that he might go out with her later on just not right now. The third was between Mara Early & Chester Carson. I’m not sure of the outcome as of yet, but after their talk after lunch he was in a bad mood. As for my relationships, I’m much better at being a friedn. Yesterday I found out what soccer team I’ll be on – an extremely crappy one aside from three other kids including Mike Jackson, Miles something-or-other, Andrew Lawrence and myself. It will be more enjoable to ref at this point. My big project that is due beyond semester isn’t yet done. Other than that, I’m doing fine… Academically that is. —
Our schedule at school today was lame. It took the longest time to reach lunch today. Luckily that time was productive. Eli & I have scheduled an appointment with him on thursday (him being Larry Holland) to help us with our Orange Project. So far he’s a cool guy. We had a sub in math today. His name is Sammy Sims. He wouldn’t let us sit on desks, wear hats, or be tardy or leave. The weird thing is that he was awesome!
I’m still squandering with my 2 large, make that 3 large projects: Russian Home Page, Technology Proposal for Phoenix and the Science Fair Project. We wen’t to a meeting today w/Bill & he covered a lot of the things we’ve already heard, not what we assumed we’d be doing.
On a sour note my mom’s being an ass about the business. Automatically she assumes that I dislike her partnership just be cause I’m tentative about the options which are unknown to me at this point. That’s what we though we would cover in today’s meeting.
Crystal didn’t get her luggage.
Today we (mom & I) went to Udder Culture & had a meeting with Bill, Sharon & Chris Shipler. He gave us a description & invited us to go to see his plan on Thursday. I look forward to going but I’m not sure what my mom thinks about it. Tonight we’ll go talk to bill to find out about family options.
On a different note, Crystal Novotney got back today from San Francisco area (LA & all in between) without her luggage. I wonder if she’ll show up at school tomorrow. I hope so.
Today I got together with Bill and Sharon and went to a lecture thing at the downtown library. Some guy talked about the research involved with writing his book, some 20 years of reading prepared him. The book was someone’s journal for the 18 months before the declaration of independence or something like that was signed. It was pretty interesting. He read a few exerpts from teh book which made it a whole lot more intriguing. Afterwards I worked at Bill’s shop, Sam’s Auto Body for an hour and a half, scuffing a bumper to be painted later. I then had spagetti for dinner & read a little, up to 99 pages now, but I gotta go – it’s past my bedtime. —