I pray to you with a throbbing heart, as I know that I have done wrong in your eyes. I recognize the severity of my choices. They are egregious errors that sour my life and lessen the opportunities to receive special blessings that you have for me.
I thank you Father for you love, compassion and understanding. For without it I would be lost and all would be hopeless as our nemesis would eventually win without opposition. However, reality dictates that Satan cannot and will not win. I am overjoyed by this truth. Father, I am thrilled that together, with your support and love to compensate for my inherent shortcomings, we will win.
Heavenly Father, I write this to you now with one purpose, to commit my mind, thoughts, words and actions to you.
This means the end of excessive physical contact with women. No “making out”, inappropriate kissing, roaming of the hands (intentional or not) nor lustful thoughts – as they are not of Christ. This means no immoral or impure thoughts, no pornography, no sexual transgressions. This means that I will now choose to avoid the very appearance of evil. Time alone with a girl or girlfriend is okay, granted the relations remain appropriate and we abstain from sexual conduct. I understand the greatest of journeys starts with one step followed by another. My greatness in this life and the next will be due to small, daily choices, not a transformation of person.
Heavenly Father, you know all. You know my mistakes, past, present, and even future. You know my shortcomings. You also know my strengths and talents. Most important though, you know my heart and my desires.
You say in your word that, “…to him it is given according to his desires, whether he desireth good or evil, life or death, joy or remorse of conscience.” I have had remorse of conscience. I have had times of spiritual death. I no longer desire that path. I desire and yearn to be one of your warriors – a proponent of Righteousness, spreading the Gospel and condemning all Evil – even when unpopular and inconvenient. Also in your word you say, “…everyone who asks, receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” Father, I am pleading for your forgiveness. So many mistakes, so many failures. I desire to turn my life around for you.
Father, as of Wednesday, May 20 of 2001, I made a covenant, promise and oath to You swearing that no matter the temptation, I will rise above it. In my thoughts actions and words, I will be a righteous man! I understand by stating this that the devil will be on a rampage to lead me away and discourage me, and have me fall away. Unfortunately for him, I will not be daunted. Fortunately for us, I will rise up under any adversity. I speak victory and I speak triumph. With my words, thoughts and actions, every one will see that I am a stronger man, including the enemy.
Heavenly master, I leave you now with my promise and ask for all of your blessings and strength as I begin my lifetime journey as one of your knights.
With great love, admiration and sincerity,
In Jesus’ name,
Amen