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Alright, my spirit is at such a low point right now that I am not sure it could go much lower. I wish I wasn’t in this situation. I wish I had the strength, I wish this were all just a bad bad dream. As it works out I have screwed with not only my life, my spirit, my success, but other people. My salvation now seems to be hanging in the middle.
I know that what I have done is completely wrong. I don’t really have much excuse. I am consumed with my own frustration and pain from doing things that are in society, unspeakable. I want to be rid of this.
With my going eagle this month, I see this as a plausible tool of an evil power. I know that I will be great, that I will impact many many people in a great way. I think the devil wants me to be in such a destructive situation that I cannot progress. I am stronger than him.
Pain frustration anger, confusion, worry, fear, hurt, anguish, sorrow. Those are just a few of the sensations that I am experiencing now.
Think of the day that I will be forgiven and healed completely of this issue.