Alright, this is another method for relaying what I am thinking. I
don’t exactly know right now, so I think this will likely be a forum to
express some of what I have been feeling recently. Well, we will see
how it turns out.
I wonder where Jaime is… I hope that she isn’t getting herself into too
much trouble. One can only handle so much. I would like to talk to her
when I get back, but I don’t know if I will have the time as it will be
somewhat late at that point (as it is already 1:20 in the morning)
Okay, so what do I have going on in my head?
This was an absolutely amazing weekend. I don’t think I have spent a
better time with closer friends. I was able to see Tommy, Dan, Corey,
Jeff, and then Helen. This was amazing. I liked the spontanaety, I
liked the atmosphere. I loved the time with Helen, that was the best
part by far. There is so much that I would like to have, yet so much
that I have jeapordized. I think it was great getting to know Jaime and
Reesie, and that they will likely give their blessing to me to be with
Helen. I know that I am a good Man to be in a relationship with. I
know that I will constantly improve myself, because I am committed to
the process of changing lives. I don’t know what it was about my
physical actions, why I screwed around, why I couldn’t be stronger.
Perhaps it was because I wasn’t strong enough. If that is the case, why
am I not strong enough? What gives?