FED 2002
What a function. I am working on Journaling. I just spoke with Kurt Goad. Asked about the process of sharing the love within to others. What there is that I can do to be able to spead that life to others. He answers many things, but mostly it is a great in great out theme. He suggested prayer, books, tapes, and journaling. Here is another journal entry.
I don’t really know what is on my heart. So much right now. I am excited about a relationship with Shelley. I don’t know what it is about it, and it may be from a higher power, but it has created that hunger to see her. Perhaps it’s meant to be perfect. Perhaps this is limerance (refer to the 5 love languages, chapter 3). No matter how it goes, it’s something that I need to find an answer about. (not that I necessarily want to know about.)
She says that she loves me, and I would respond the same; however, I am hesitant to make that step… I desire to keep this a rational experience.
Right now I am sitting in the headquarter hotel wating with Eric P, Bill W, Steve C, Allan B, Rebecca G, and Darrell H. We’re waiting for Wolg to get back from a movie.
Today was incredible. I believe that I have been forgiven for my heinous mistake made on Thursday and Friday. I am so thankful for that. It’s amazing what the Lord will do for you when you ask.
I get on the plane tomorrow morning at 5 am… That seems to be coming soon.
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Brief break… Listened to Brad for awhile, then made it to the airport. I sit here in the semi dark in my corner surrounded by sleeping people and a big fan. I don’t know that I will be able to sleep (I’m planning to get up in only 1 hr 30 min…)
So I got email responses from Shelley. She was straightforward with me to explain that Pres Kearns has been talking with her about our situation. I think we are both doing quite well, but at the same time I don’t want to become complacent in that venue.
Ooh, I remember… I want to do my reading! I’ll be back in 15 (or more…)
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