Journal entry of some sort
3.15.2004
Lunchtime
So here I am – It’s a Monday, I’m at lunch, and it’s nice cause I can take some time to note whatever I happen to think about.
My first thought while sitting down is that I’m pretty sore. It comes from ultimate yesterday – a practice with the Upsea Daisies… My quads, calves, and ankle are all sore. Oh well. They’ll get better.
It’s cold sitting here. Although I do like the lighting. It’s bright which is always a nice thing (unless trying to sleep.)
I have to go back to work in 20 minutes.
Okay, so finding things to talk about is a bit of a challenge at the moment, but they’re starting to come more easily now.
It’s surprising at what a difference being Russian can do for an appearance – For instance, both Lera and Alyona (Helen) are quite attractive. I’m sure there are many women who would be bombshells if only they dressed the part. It seems that Russian women do.
I’ve been reading more than normal lately. That has been nice. I’m going to try to read each day before I get done with work. This morning I was able to read before my shower out of ‘Communication, Sex, and Money’. It’s interesting that sometimes while reading, I can notice myself being resistant to changing – especially when it means work on my part – as in relationships or habits that I might have. I don’t really know what the cause for the hesitation.
I had the thought yesterday to talk with Toby Coate about his spiritual walk and the like – I like the fact that he seems to live what he says, and plays the part well. There are other people out there who seem to use their lives as a forum to periodically apply the good learning and teachings that happen within church settings, but all-to-many people decide that no one is looking. I’m sure that even I do that to some extent.
My battery life on my laptop sure isn’t what it used to be… it’s surprising how quickly it gets drained – I’m only been unplugged for maybe 55 minutes, but still I’m at the low category something like 16 minutes left!
I need to use the facilities but I think I’m gonna wait for about 5 minutes so that I can go while on my way back to work.
I’d rather go home for the remainder of the day – oh well. Oh, I need to do more finance stuff. Lookie there – Patricia is back online I’ll chat with her a bit before going back to work.
I wonder if I’ll ever get to see her again. It was interesting to have the intense summer fling thing – fun, but unnerving since there wasn’t ever really anything defining about it.
Oh, bout time for me to go back to work. I guess it was nice to type for a few minutes – perhaps with time, I’ll get better at this.
Bye.
I need to break cycles in kids so that they don’t end up making choices like myself and most of my peers. Premarital sex, damaging; pornography, heinous; fear, unnecessary; Spiritual life, imperative. There are so many people that could be helped if only they had broken the cycles ahead of the time that they were gripping. (they were damaging the whole time.)
1. Eric Peterson: Child molester. Great guy, but allowed for his appetites to cross lines that took him into the unlawful and dangerous.
2. Cody Bennett: look at what he’s got, potential excommunication, premarital sex, struggling inside to do what is right, masturbation as a vice, uncertain of direction, others demanding immediate response to the situations that he has led him into.
3. Helen Imamura: Spiritual blessings withheld because of involvement with Cody. Church membership likely set off because of actions. Frustrations. Fighting the world to stick with what she wants, even if it isn’t the best thing for her. Associations from friends that are damaging and bad examples.
4. Adriana Rodriguez: from an alcoholic family. Living with boyfriend even with the relationship on the rocks. Wants what is right, but stuck with what is convenient (housing situations, boyfriends, etc.)
5. Sahra Clark: Emotionally Unsupportive husband. He’s out late partying, she’s several months pregnant.
6. Mika/Jason Morford: Great folk, but willing to focus on the problem and not the solution.
Hey: Willing to focus on the problem and not on the solution! What have I been doing!???
Okay off to bed for now. We’ll continue this more in the future.
-cb; 4.1.03
August 22, 2000
From the Gray Journal
Wow, I just read through that all & man have things changed. I don’t know that I could include it all in between this cover. I think I will make a couple of lists. One of them will be things that have changed since my last writing and would currently be incorrect and the second list will be of things I would like to remember to include & talk about later on. So now the lists:
List #1:
List #2:
[…and I must have stopped, because…]
August 23, 2000
Well I think that will do for now, but I am reserving the right to add more. You know since I really haven’t completed many entries throughout the summer, I don’t think this will be an accurate represnetation of
[…and I must have stopped again!…]
Just got done fighting with my mom about going to a board plan of Chris’! Apparently I perceived, said, & understood everything wrong so she’s mad, well “upset” that I am forcing her to go. Originally she said that she didn’t want to go because shane would then have to stay home alone which she didn’t like the idea of, but I kept on and suggested that I stay home with Shane while she go alone. Next she argues that I should go just as much as her. That was that. Now she refuses to not go, but going with her attitude would be counter producttive in my opinion. Off of that subject, I’ve been sick for awhile but yesterday I threw up at the Laundry & Shower place before schoo. I went to school anyway, even though I had the option of staying home which I turend down. Today I’m feeling a lot better, but my nose is still stuffy. During project period Eli drove us out to Auke Bay Labs & we got a tour and some advice from Larry Holland, our sci fair proj helper as a direct result from that meeting now we have 50 grams or 500 grams of L-ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C) and the knowledge that using fruits in our expiraments would involve using a 100K & up work of equipment (a bad idea) so he showed us some other options. Also in the past 3 days, I have had 3 people ask for advice on what to do about relationships. The first one was Raliegh Morris & Lisa Mitchell; by today it fell apart. The second was Candice Seils & Nathan Harris. She found out that he might go out with her later on just not right now. The third was between Mara Early & Chester Carson. I’m not sure of the outcome as of yet, but after their talk after lunch he was in a bad mood. As for my relationships, I’m much better at being a friedn. Yesterday I found out what soccer team I’ll be on – an extremely crappy one aside from three other kids including Mike Jackson, Miles something-or-other, Andrew Lawrence and myself. It will be more enjoable to ref at this point. My big project that is due beyond semester isn’t yet done. Other than that, I’m doing fine… Academically that is. —
Last day of Christmas vacation, unfortunately all good things come to an end.
Today my mom had a meeting with Bill & Sharon about the business. I didn’t go. Instead I hung out at the Nugget mall. While there I filled out 2 job applications, one to kits camera and the other to the Nugget Alaskan Outfitters. I also dropped off a roll of TMax 100 to be developed and get a proof sheet for it. Yesterday mom dropped 6 color rolls at costco. All of them will be done by Tuesday at the very latest. I can’t wait to pick them up. I need to finish my math that I have procrastinated on so far. —