Recently I ordered Robert Kiyosaki’s book, “Retire Young, Retire Rich: How to Get Rich Quickly and Stay Rich Forever!”. It’s been a good read so far (intro and chapter one), mostly because of it’s forceful “think-about-it!” nature.
Robert outlines the turning point of his life when he began the road towards financial independence. I’m simply going to quote a lot of things because I found them to be helpful for me to read through and ponder the statements. Read the rest of this entry »
Brad was here this week to give a presentation and spend some quality time with the Juneau businesses. It was a great time with lots of fantastic information. I noticed during his visit that I’m saturated with information. Both internally and externally it is obvious that the only delay to me building a significant business is picking up the phone or getting out in person and making invitations for people to see the business model. It’s high time for me to show the plan. I’m not sure what has held me back, but the nagging sensation that it truly is a “paper wall” (as Sharon puts it) keeps ringing in my inner ear.
My destiny and my family’s destiny is at stake. I realize that the only reason that I would decide to pick up a gold bar for myself would be if I can see immediate value in it’s capture. In what ways am I needing immediate relief from my life or situation? I guess it’s just a matter of inking through my dreams so that I know what things I want to accomplish.
it’s the solstice tonight, and so lots of people are out enjoying themselves on account that the earth is leaning closer to the sun than at any other time of the year. whoo. yeah, feel the excitement.
had work, then ultimate today. tomorrow i leave for Anchorage for an ultimate tourney with the Juneau folks. it should prove to be fun, along with a lot of running. I think my energy level is a bit low about it, but Im sure it’ll pick up as game time approaches.
i think it was monday… the 18th… that heather and i finally decided to be official about our relationship – i now have a girlfriend.
Journaling
June 12, 2007
Tonight I had a revealing talk with Mika about my predilection towards ambiguity in relationships. At one point, she mentioned that someone else had described me to have predatory behaviors.
It’s a heavy thing to hit. Fortunately the delivery was gentle and wanted. I trust Mika’s heart, and in that process, she was able to communicate some strong things. For instance, she asked when I would be done with this “learning” that I purport to be in? How long will it take? And if I say that I am learning, or if I say that I am working on it, where is the reality that I have what I speak? When will I speak that I am through the trials?
I think the thing that I realize is mostly that I am deluding myself to believe that I am “protected” by my ambiguity. I say that I am not dating, which allows me freedom to cast my seed to the wind, but simultaneously, I rob myself from the blessings of commitment, pride, and self respect.
Mika is mindful of the dynamic of having a single female in her business spending much solo time with me – what is it about me that I tend towards that can open those paths?
Tonight even, Emily was flirting with me on the Ultimate field. I was kissing Heather, and yet I found myself flirting with Elly. When will it stop? How will I find the urgency to make the one decision that I need to anchor myself?
John Maxwell talks in Today Matters about the idea of making the decision once and managing it daily. Have I made that big decision? Can I articulate it clearly? What about other decisions in my life? Alcohol, drugs, smoking? Those are easy. The stumbling blocks that I cling to? What about those?
The last entry I had talked about knowledge and authority equating to power. I have been given the power to lead my life as I see fit. What big decisions would I be wise to make? (Spirituality? Relationships? Integrity?)
I remember clearly listening to Brad Duncan talk about hedges. About developing, and watering, and growing hedges of protection to be set out at the far edges of my land – to help maintain boundaries for myself, as well as protection from outside dangers. How am I doing that now? Am I developing hedges?
Journaling
June 6, 2007
From opening a past journal entry from May 30, 2006, I read that I was under the suspicion that Helen might be pregnant. I’m a year out, but still having sex with her. Sigh.
Heather and I have been developing, but I have a hard time with maintaining chastity. I’m reading (and rereading) a book that I picked up from the Goads table at Spring Leadership named “Man’s Greatest Battle”.
In it, they hit upon a point that has been hovering in my consciousness for the past few days. It explains the challenge and then gets to the point of making a decision, and then very clearly outlines the following: We have the Freedom and Authority to make any decision we’re so inclined. What we are lacking at any given moment is Urgency.
How does one drive things to the urgent list? How do I make my business urgent? How do I increase the urgency of things that are important to me? How can I break my bad habits through identifying the urgent requirement of change?
Freedom + Authority = Power.
I have the power. I just need to DECIDE and follow through.
I’ll close for now, but this subject is far from complete. I’ll have to touch upon it some other time.
LOOK IN THE MIRROR!
Last night as we were leaving Ultimate, I received a text message on my phone from Anna-Mariah Kelly informing me that Toby Coate, longtime Juneau resident and all-around awesome guy died while fishing on a river on Prince of Whales Island.
Naturally it comes as a shock. Within the last 9 months alone (since September) there have been 4 deaths of people that I know. Jody Watson, Kenneth Natkong, Anne Shima, and now Toby Coate.
2006-06-13 – Journaling – How do I want to be liked?
Hey there me, how are you?
I’m at lunch. It’s nice because I decided to stay on campus and do a little journaling. So now I’m listening to John Maxwell’s Influencer 2 training, and drinking a lovely Cherry XS.
On my way over here, I thought that it’d be nice to do another Letter to Helen, like I did last night. It was a nice way to get my feelings out, and though I’m not sure that she’ll ever read them, it’s neat to see me being honest with myself and my own struggles.
Journaling
May 30, 2006
Wow. So, things can change on you all of s sudden. I’m 25 and five months, and Helen is under the impression that she might be pregnant. Holy smokes. What a wakeup call.
I don’t know what to think at the moment. Bill gave the suggestion that I would be wise to look at how my father was to see if there are any correlations between myself and his actions. From the little I know and can pull together, I’m his spitting image.
I seek validation from women (he had two children, 6 weeks apart.) I am mechanically and analytically inclined (he was a mechanic for many years.)
Journaling
April 3, 2006
“Why not me?” she asks.
Well, why not?
Helen has been a great friend and girlfriend, and many people would be lucky to have a chance with a girl like her. And if that’s the case, why is it that I’m not willing to take on the responsibilities of being hers?
She feeds me constantly, provides massage nearly every day, and is willing to engage in sex whenever I’m interested. If guys only knew how good I have it, they’d be fools to not want the same thing.
So, if that’s the case, why is it that I’m considering dating Heather?